I just can't believe 1 whole year has passed us by since Jeydon flew away to Heaven.
We all miss you still so much.
We love you, Jey.
That's all I've got.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
My Special, Bright Angel.
I am so sorry for the break between postings. We have been on several holiday and even had a trip to hospital yikes!!
My older brother, Levi, got really sick with meningitis and landed himself in hospital in the middle of Feb. and it was quite a scare to our whole family. I haven't been to that hospital since the June afternoon we took Jeydon home for the very last time and it was very awkward being back there, but nice to see the lovely doctors and nurses, they are so dedicated! He stayed inpatient for about a week or so and then was able to go home and is still somewhat recovering. He had the bacterial type which was even more of a cause for concern but they caught it early so he is ok now and that is all that matters. :)
As you can imagine, we are very much still in the midst of missing sweet Jeydon as each day fades into the next. I didn't get to post on the 7th month, or the 8th but they came and went as any angelversary. I will admit my mood fluctuates from time to time but I am generally a happy person, well at least I try to remain positive! There are always moments though, as expected. I will share of one briefly below...
Ava started a new preschool because we were unhappy with her old one, so her first day was sometime in Feb. When she first arrived in her little class looking so cute as always, her teacher introducted her kindly to her new class. They all waved and smiled and giggled and cheered like the happy little people they are. And then the teacher asked her a few questions, favourite colour: pink (of course) favourite food: cookies....(again...of course) and so on. They she asked how many siblings she had. Stop. Ava stood tall as her 3 foot little figure could and stated: I've got a sister, Kyler, a sister, Lex (Alexis' nickname) and she stopped for a moment...stood a littler taller and smiled proudly out to her class (she is usually a tad bit shy and looks toward mum) AAAAND I've got a special, bright angel in Heaven called Jeydon! Everyone's hearts stopped and I know people tried to choke back tears (I was one of them) and failed (again, I was one of them) but everyone also smiled. For Ava. For Jeydon.
We miss you, Jeydon! We Love you! Keep shining brightly!!
"I am a helping hand, I am a hero"
Before I go though, I need to ask for a prayer request as this is very important. Her name is Layla Grace Marsh. Her name has been all over the internet recently because well...she is cute, she is two and she has Stage Four Neuroblastoma.
www.twitter.com/laylagrace
www.laylagrace.org
Please, no matter what you believe in, just say a simple prayer of peace for this little beauty..she needs prayers wherever God wants her...be it in Heaven or on Earth.
Kyler xxxx
My older brother, Levi, got really sick with meningitis and landed himself in hospital in the middle of Feb. and it was quite a scare to our whole family. I haven't been to that hospital since the June afternoon we took Jeydon home for the very last time and it was very awkward being back there, but nice to see the lovely doctors and nurses, they are so dedicated! He stayed inpatient for about a week or so and then was able to go home and is still somewhat recovering. He had the bacterial type which was even more of a cause for concern but they caught it early so he is ok now and that is all that matters. :)
As you can imagine, we are very much still in the midst of missing sweet Jeydon as each day fades into the next. I didn't get to post on the 7th month, or the 8th but they came and went as any angelversary. I will admit my mood fluctuates from time to time but I am generally a happy person, well at least I try to remain positive! There are always moments though, as expected. I will share of one briefly below...
Ava started a new preschool because we were unhappy with her old one, so her first day was sometime in Feb. When she first arrived in her little class looking so cute as always, her teacher introducted her kindly to her new class. They all waved and smiled and giggled and cheered like the happy little people they are. And then the teacher asked her a few questions, favourite colour: pink (of course) favourite food: cookies....(again...of course) and so on. They she asked how many siblings she had. Stop. Ava stood tall as her 3 foot little figure could and stated: I've got a sister, Kyler, a sister, Lex (Alexis' nickname) and she stopped for a moment...stood a littler taller and smiled proudly out to her class (she is usually a tad bit shy and looks toward mum) AAAAND I've got a special, bright angel in Heaven called Jeydon! Everyone's hearts stopped and I know people tried to choke back tears (I was one of them) and failed (again, I was one of them) but everyone also smiled. For Ava. For Jeydon.
We miss you, Jeydon! We Love you! Keep shining brightly!!
"I am a helping hand, I am a hero"
Before I go though, I need to ask for a prayer request as this is very important. Her name is Layla Grace Marsh. Her name has been all over the internet recently because well...she is cute, she is two and she has Stage Four Neuroblastoma.
www.twitter.com/laylagrace
www.laylagrace.org
Please, no matter what you believe in, just say a simple prayer of peace for this little beauty..she needs prayers wherever God wants her...be it in Heaven or on Earth.
Kyler xxxx
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Winter - 2010
I can't believe that a new year has begun without Jeydon here. I think I've said that before for numerous different things but I guess now you "get" the idea of still not believing that Jeydon is really gone. I can't imagine that in just five months time, it will be one year. Didn't I just tell you he was gone for five months? Days? Minutes?
While it doesn't snow too often here (England) there is a small blanket of snow embracing the frozen ground. Staring outside for far too long allows thoughts to collect in my mind, such as if Jeydon is cold underground? He only has a t-shirt on, and has a bald head. Doesn't that still matter? I can't imagine why it doesn't... I'm not sure as of how many people have thought the same, but I'm sure someone has. I know his body isn't "him" anymore, but I can't push passed the fact of thinking that he might be cold. That my brother is burried in the ground because he died...
At the end of this month our Nana will be coming for a visit and soon enough she will venture out here forever to move nearby us (probably by the summer). The mere thought of that makes my heart sing!
It's hard not to think about angelversaries, but they always pool inside my mind. Next month my eldest brother's friend will be in Heaven one year..on Valentines Day to be precise. His name was "Gavin" please say a prayer in his memory on the 14th, of Feb. Also, one very special angel will be in glorious Heaven three years on Feb. the 5th. Her name is "Ava" and she's from Australia (oh you know how I dearly LOVE AU!) She was three when she was tragically taken from this world. Please visit this darling angel here. Gosh, three years. Trying to imagine that is gut-wrenching, I don't know how her amazing mum, Sheye, does it.
K xxxxx
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Death Is Nothing At All.
Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner
All is well.
Nothing is past; nothing is lost
One brief moment and all will be as it was before
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
This is the poem I spoke of whilst Jeydon was on hospice care, sleeping away in our living room on the couch he died on. I couldn't find the poem anywhere, and just found it in the information section of someone's YouTube video. I had that poem in an email from a friend who sent me it originally, but it got deleted somehow, someway.
Fly away my sweet, sweet brother.
I love you.
K xx.
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner
All is well.
Nothing is past; nothing is lost
One brief moment and all will be as it was before
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
This is the poem I spoke of whilst Jeydon was on hospice care, sleeping away in our living room on the couch he died on. I couldn't find the poem anywhere, and just found it in the information section of someone's YouTube video. I had that poem in an email from a friend who sent me it originally, but it got deleted somehow, someway.
Fly away my sweet, sweet brother.
I love you.
K xx.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Merry Christmas, My Love...
Merry Christmas, Jeydon..
This Christmas is going to be so different without you here physically. We know we always have the precious memories to hold onto but I'd rather hold you.
I hope you have a great Christmas with Jesus this year, Jeydon.
We haven't forgotten you..we miss you so much.
With Love,
Kyler.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Quick Prayer Request.
Our friend's daughter has a brain tumor and is currently in the hospital.
I would appreciate it if you could say a prayer tonight in her name. She is called "Alexis."
Thankyou.
k xx
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