Shoes.

Today was a quiet day. Today we sat and we cried. Together. Today in the post, we recieved shoes Jeydon had ordered 4 months back, in early June. Shoes that we're not in stock at the time. Shoes that he had wanted. And so desperatley and patiently waited for. And they arrived. Three months. Too. Late.

The new residents at occupying our old memory-filled house rang us and said a package had been sent there, one they hadn't placed and order for and one that belonged to us. When Mum and I went to pick it up, we got into the car with it and with excitement, anxious to see what this little package held. When we saw Jeydon's name stamped on the front she cried. And I cried. We cried together. I'd like to think that Jeydon has his very own pair now in Heaven, and that he's walking in new shoes. Not literally new ones that have a fresh store, rubbery scent but one's that don't carry a body with cancer. That before he even got through Heaven's gates, he took off those shoes that fell downward into emptyness and walked through the golden Heavenly path straight to Jesus, barefoot to leave a lasting impression. Like Jesus told his Apostles once, to go barefoot and bring not what you ever carired in your former life, and to follow him on his journey into forevermore happiness, love, and surrounding comfort without any suffering at all, and for Jeydon, without cancer. For any child whom went before us with cancer, to come into purity forever and live a beautiful eternal life with Him.

We look forward to taking that same path one hour. To walk down that long awaited path straight to Jesus and Jeydon who will sit becide him in Heavenly peace. I know he has hair now, and his favorite clothes, shoes and whatever he wants forever and that is a great source of comfort. And while we may have found suffering now, Jeydon has found peace and that is more than enough.

Matthew 10:10
Provide neither gold, nor silver, nor brass in your purse, Nor scrip for your journey, neither two coats, neither shoes, nor yet staves.

I just wanted to make a post to let everyone know that we are okay and still here. Still missing Jeydon like crazy, but still here. So hard to believe that in 2 short days it will be three long months. Jeydon would have been in school already and it was hard to enter that building again like I did for the last time on the fifteenth for my last exam and for Jeydon's last day a few days eariler.

Life is hard without Jeydon, but in painful honesty it does go on without him. We are generally happy people, but when I come here it is my place to grieve because it used to be for updates on Jeydon requiring his health now it is updates on our missing of him.

More later.

K xx.