Reflections

The long awaited picture: Jeydon's memory tree. It is simply gorgeous, small and a good way to relfect on Jeydon's life. Thank you to the dear sweet woman who gave me this idea. We are all still caught up in the missing, good days and bad. But this trip is something we all deserve and something we all need, bad. Australia here we come ! I know in my heart that Jeydon would approve of this tree, as he LOVED swinging from and climbing up trees for his entire life, nothing ever stopped him.

We're leaving on holiday in a few days now, so i'll post again later, we have company now.

Kyler xx.

Blue Has Never Been Bluer

We'll be heading out soon, within the next few days.

I am not so much in the posting-mood but I wanted to share an idea that a complete stranger so kindly gave me.
They suggested that we plant a shrub, bush, or tree in memory of Jeydon and I just thought the idea was simply perfect. So, I discussed it with my parents and they so much as agreed, and now in our backyard stands a new little tree, for Jeydon, of course.

Pictures of it soon! Before we leave, I promise!

I also thought that the song in this video brought a strong amount of comfort to myself personally. I really do hope Jeydon is happy and whole now, despite my strong will to want him back here.


Please as you watch that video, also pray for that family, the Aigners. Their daughter has been in Heaven for 1 year yesterday from the same cancer that took Jeydon. I never met them personally, but felt competely inspired by their daughter through her website. Another brave little angel....

Kyler xx.

An Obituary for a Valiant Warrior {Waiting}

Here is Jeydon's obituary that I promised...

On June 16th, 2009 Heaven's Gates opened up for Jeydon Cassidy Matthews, 14. Jeydon died at home surrounded by loved one's he held closest at 6:22 AM after a ten year battle against Neuroblastoma (a rare form of pediatric cancer.) Although to many Jeydon's life seemed short; he lead an extremely rich and fulfilling life in the years he graced this Earth. His strong determination, contagous laughter and unforgettable personality will be remembered by people he knew throughout his life. Jeydon's enjoyed activities such as skateboarding, swimming, video games, and without a doubt being with his friends and family whom he loved dearly. While his illness put a horrific burden on his body, he never let it falter his faith in the Lord and he always knew how much he was and still is loved. Jeydon is survived by his mother, Grace Matthews; his father, Derrick Matthews and his 4 sibblings as follows: his eldest brother Levi Matthews; his twin sister Kyler Matthews; and youngest sibblings: Alexis Matthews + Ava Matthews. His life is held dearly by many caretakers, doctors, nurses and blood doners who helped save his life numerous times. There is a special place in our hearts for Jeydon's beloved doctor whom he called "Sweet Caroline" who has been with us since diagnosis, serving Jeydon with an abundant amount of courage and dignity in his life and also in his death. Jeydon is predeceased by his Grandad Joe, Uncle Kurt and his best friend Danyelle. Our hope is that even though Jeydon's life was short, people will be able to notice that it was not in vain and that his determination was spread far and wide enough to shine in our hearts forever.

Until we meet again "Bubba." You are our so very loved and cherished.

"Some people only dream of angels, I held one in my arms."
Rest easy now, Jeydon.

Tomorrow will be one week without Jeydon and one week sounds and feels just like forever! I still sit in our (or is it my, now?) bedroom and wait for him to come running up the stairs and burst through the door to say that people are "waiting for us and not to take a hour, lets just go" In harsh reality I know he won't ever again, but it helps to sit and wait. I find myself racking my brain over and over for simple memories of Jeydon, anything give me anything God, to please never forget him. It's scary when I have to sit back and say things like "Wait, what was the last thing he said to me? When was the last time he called me? Is the voicemail from him still in my inbox? Or did I delete it? Good, it's there. SHIT. I can't remember what his voice sounds like!!! Wait, the message, I still have the message.." It sounds crazy, and I feel like a maniac but that's normalcy around here now.

I finally put all of Jeydon's clothes away. I had put this off, and my mom asked me kindly to please do it before vacation because she doesn't want to come home to a house full of reminders that Jeydon is really gone and she's not strong enough to do it herself, she said. We hope that this vacation will allow us to heal for a least a little while. I am glad that we have this vacation and that we can go to Jeydon's favourite place ever-the beach. But a worry also lingers as I don't want to come home to a heavy sadness of Jeydon's absence. It's so hard to have someone missing from your presence, especially if you have known them for your life in its entirety. One week ago tomorrow was the first time in my life that I lived without Jeydon there in it...how could that be? How are you really gone forever, Jeydon?

kyler xx

It's The Little Things. {Not Lost But Gone Before, Here No More, Here No More.}

The last conversation that Jeydon was engaged in was with our mother at about 2AM after he had finished vomiting blood, and he was tired. Tired of hurting. His whole body was tired and you could read that on his face easily, but somehow he had found an abundant amount of strength to speak clearly and fully to our mother whom he loved so much. He found the most beautiful words to speak to her, almost as if Jesus was standing over him guiding him with his words to comfort us in some way. I will never forget the look on his face, while I sat on the other couch across from the one he was laying on with his head on my mothers lap. He looked straight up at her face and gently whispered "You opened your arms for me, but God placed me in your heart and I am safe." and then went to sleep and never fully woke up again. It was like the world stood still while he spoke, and it was quiet, but so so loud at the same time, I am sure it could be heard in the Heaven's. Then, just two days after Jeydon departed this song came on the radio, and it made so much sense...



Yesterday was Jeydon's final sendoff and as you can imagine it was unbelieveably painful and heart wrenching but at the same time very, very peaceful and hopeful. Two words that were such a part of Jeydon's short life, especially the last half plus years. After the funeral, we all went to the beach and released 300+ balloons. Jeydon loved the beach and so what better way. Soon we will head there but in a different country and I will bring the computer if its avaliable, I will let you know. Sorry for still not getting the eulogy/letters/obituary to you, but it's long and i've been very tired and so I will get to it as soon as I can. It's so hard to believe those documentations of finalized death were written for my brother...

I was so happy to see that Jeydon's life wasn't only grieved over at the funeral and that it was also celebrated to its fullest-just the way Jeydon lived. Nobody dressed in full black. There was colors. Jeydon's favorite colors and his favorite food and his favorite songs and his favorite people and favorite memories. When I saw our little sister, Ava, giggle and point to Jeydon's balloons that danced to Heaven, that was how I knew Jeydon was there. And when I saw Jeydon's girlfriend mourn over his body, only holding herself up by the golden handles that surrounded his coffin, it was how I knew Jeydon died.

The pain is so deep and threaded through each of the cells in my body, it hurts to do anything. When Jeydon's favorite TV shows come on, or when I see kids outside skateboarding or biking or out with their friends it feels very unfair. Today a few of Jeydon's guy friends were out on their skateboards and I had to collect my emotions and tell myself Jeydon was just sleeping and thats why he wasn't out. And to make matters worse, the desktop background on our computer is Jeydon and I with some of our friends, but his face really sticks out. I don't have the courage to change it so I guess it serves me well. The little things is what gets most of us down now-a-days.


Here No More

Not lost but gone before
Here no more, here no more
Each day the long light dims and fades
Not lost but gone before

Creation sings mountains bring
Age is born through memory and lore
Upon a saw tall timbers fall
Here no more, here no more

The light shines close echos low
Of your sweet voice I weep and mourn
Upon a saw tall timbers fall
Here no more, here no more

Not lost but gone before
Here no more, here no more
Each day the long light dims and fades
Not lost but gone before
Each day the long light dims and fades
Not lost but gone before

So tonight, there will be one less person in our house. But one more void between us all. It's what makes us right now. My void grows bigger as each memory of Jeydon gathers in my mind and shortly flutters out a few moments later so I can "save it for later" when I need it. He knows when I need it. And that is all I need.

x. Kyler

"I've Been Cleansed"

http://www.youtube.com/profile_video_blog?user=channelforthecure
Go there to view the songs being played at Jeydon's funeral. There is so many because a few are being merged together in a video that celebrates Jeydon's fruitful life. I know a LOT of people are going to wonder why there is a "hardcore/thrash" song on the playlist. Well, Jeydon did infact enjoy that type of music and that song if you look at most of the lyrics-a lot of them make sense.

And yet i've been cleansed with the water.
A purity no mind can grasp.
A purity so cool upon my fingertips.
The vision that i've seen: this is the action that spawns from the end.
For the longest time, i've been watching the world breathe against (spiderwebs).
What lies here are mountains composed of tombstones.
Examine these beautiful faces, keep singing now.
Keep singing.
Will we push bedlam noise to the state of blissfulness?
Display her beauty to the people.
A purity no mind can grasp.

In no way, shape or form would Jeydon want his entire funeral based around bereavement. He would want the songs HE loves, not songs that resemble his death, or his absence, but of course some songs must be. We have not planned to get his headstone yet, it's going to be a hard task, but one day in the future (can't say near future) but SOON it will get done, my mom said.

Next I will show you Jeydon's "going to Heaven outfit".. This was quite a choice because Jeydon was concered in his clothing and he took quite pride in them, wanting to always look better than everyone else. :) This is his shirt, (sorry I couldn't pose the shirt and pants together, they would have been too hard to see.)


















And these, are Jeydon's most favorite pants. Ever. Anyone who knew Jeydon knew how much he loved them and how much they were worn. It only made sense to send him off to Heaven in them so he could wear them for enternal life... We haven't yet decided what shoes will accompany Jeydon's feet. He loved his shoes more than anything and always had a pair on, always sneakers though. Preferably vans. There is two, one autographed pair that was signed by numerous people at "Warped Tour" last year, a concert Jeydon loved going to. One he will miss this year...not to mention our friends bought him a ticket back in May. Also, in the shirt before "The Devil Wears Prada" was Jeydon's favorite band and they are the one who sing "HTML Rulez D00d" the song being played tomorrow at his funeral.

This seems very surreal, and we have been living in one big blurry state since Jeydon left us. We all miss him, SO much, it hurts. We have many, many happy memories of Jeydon but smiles are soon accompanied by tears..It's so hard to believe that tomorrow will be the last time we will EVER seen Jeydon-until we meet again in Heaven-a much better place. It only makes sense he left before us. He was born before me, and since he was born all he wanted was to be first! Now he met God first, and he gets the complete healing which must be something so amazing. He will always be remembered and forever loved, never forgotten.

Just for you Jeydon, "the pockets" haha.
Jeydon always had a "thing" for pockets and without trying to sound too strange about it, he always wanted to see what everyones looked like to see if he approved. Like it mattered anyway, it did to him. He always did the strangest, yet cutest things.

We all miss and love you Jeydon. Send us signs from Heaven, okay? I hope you're okay now and that it doesn't hurt anymore. I hope you're having the time of your life, you deserve it. Really, you do. Night, dude. Love you forever and always. Moon and back. Stars and forward. :) Kyler

Please continue the prayers,
-Kyler.

I feel safe saying Jeydon is now finally safe. Nobody would have ever imagined his life end this way, and we never for a second though about him leaving this earth-that is, until he was gone. Now how about that picture I took yesterday just as the sun was setting, notice the orb too? :) We all miss him so very much as you can imagine but we are at peace knowing he is no longer suffering.

His stuff that he died with, (his favorite blanket ontop of him, and his beloved pillow) are still resting on our couch that Jeydon was laying on as he released his life and joined GOD for an eternal life. My parents have decided not to have Jeydon buried with his blanket, because we want to keep it here to have the closest memory of him we can and what better way. He will be buried later this week sometime, I am still not too sure and I don't believe my parents want me to post it here but I will have to ask. When I figure how to work that website, I will let you all know the URL so you can post one as well if you'd like. If anyone knows how to use it, please let me know? Thank you.

Soon, I will have to take all of Jeydon's things off of our MAC and save them somewhere else but for right now, they'll stay. It's funny because I used to mind having to share a computer with him I just thought it was incredibly ridiculous but now I LOVE to sign on here and see all of his photos, silly messages and all those things. I will at a later date, share information leading up to Jeydons passing, but for now it is all too raw, and I have no idea when it will subside. Be patient with me please.

Tomorrow I will post Jeydon's eulogy and messages from a few close friends who will speak at his funeral, including my farewell to him also.

I can happily say that Jeyon RAN through Heaven's gates, laughing the hardest he's ever laughed, smiling the biggest he ever though possible and most importantly, he had a NEW, cleansed body that was healed by our Almightly. Not one ounce of cancer, or pain, disease, sickness, nothing just JEYDON pure Jeydon. Something we had all longed to see just in a different way.

No more cancer Jeydon. No more chemo, no more radiation, no more blood draws, no more medicines, no more pain, no more suffering or hurting, no more crying. You can rejoice now in your new body, out of that old "silly body" as Jeydon used to put it.

We all love you SO much and we miss you with everything we've got.
Well done my valiant warrior.

-Kyler
Please continue the prayers.

Jeydon Cassidy Matthews.

Jeydon Cassidy
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In short, Jeydon suffered until he took his final breath at 6:22 AM with our family surrounding him. Our hearts will forever have a rather large hole in them and we already miss him! It's so hard to think this world will carry on without him.

I will post later and make it more extensive.

No more suffering Jeydon, you made it.
"I finally made it"

-Kyler

Heartbreaking...

Jeydon is dying before our eyes and its heartbreaking to see.. there was many times we have just told him to go in the past few hours even though we want him to stay. its so obvious he is letting go but his body is working so hard to keep him here. when my dad gets home we are going to pull the IV out that is giving him life right now-fluids and just let him go peacefully. jeydon has vomited about 10-11 times since i last posted and his body is so tired..

God, if Jeydon isnt already there, he's on his way. please make sure that our grandfather and his pre-deceased best friend welcome him in along with you. take good care of him, he deserves it.

tomorrow will mark TEN years since Jeydon was diagnosed and i hope he doesn't have to suffer much longer i can't imagine him going through any more pain, his pain kills me.

We all love you Jeydon and you continue to make us so proud !!
we will miss you forever, but God needs you more.

-kyler
continue the prayers

Learning How To Fly.

Jeydon steadily continues to decline-rapidly. My mom already began making funeral arrangements which was hard, considering he is still here but that feels just so final. I find myself starring blankly sometimes just thinking he really is going to Heaven now, isn't he? It hurts-a lot. And he continues to hurt every few hours, but the morphine does the trick of healing him temporarily. Jeydon has upped the scales on his amount of morphine and we're almost at 100 MG (I think thats how you put it) of pain medications, which just sedates him and there he lies on the couch very motionless.

He talks in his sleep and says things that none of us can really understand, its mostly just babbling like baby-talk. When the morphine wears off he is still conscious and can still talk, respond and communicate fully if the pain isn't getting the best of him. I assume time is near, and he will be free soon, which we all hope goes slowly yet quickly. We hate to keep him here any longer than God planned for, but we selfishly want more time because we love him and miss him so very much already yet he's just in the next room. Speaking of "next room" someone sent me a poem the other day along of the lines of "I didn't die, I have only slipped into the next room." or something like that, and I found it very comforting. I only wish that was literal and that would really be the case, but Heaven is so much better and he deserves it fully.

Responding to my eariler post was mainly for friends and family so don't scratch your head to think "but she never gave out her address.." lol I didn't, I just needed to clarify it for close relatives and friends. My parents would prefer no visitors until the end because we just want to be like bread and soak up every last sent, moment, memory, and visions of Jeydon. Sorry if that seems a bit rude, but I hope and I think most of you can relate and or understand...

Please continue the prayers.

-Kyler

Quick Note-will post later

Please, no visitors at my mothers request. She asked I come on here and post that, thank you.


I'll give more info later.
Thanks.

Please pray
-Kyler

Take Me Back.

Well, here you have it. Jeydon has most definitely seen better days and nights around here. Today has been the "first" day he's really been needing of hospice care and his pain seems to increase every hour and I assume things will get worse. He recieved his first rescue dose of morphine today at about 1:30 PM and continues to recieve and need pain medications every three to four hours respectively. Hospice care-takers have all been saying that things are going to really get ugly around here, and they were so right. Jeydon slept about 2 hours last night before being woken with severe, and I mean SEVERE leg/hip/abdominal pain and that was when he was started up on his morphine bolus. Things haven't gone too swimmingly either since then.

We've all been looking at old photographs and memories of Jeydon in better years. Years he was either completely free of any suffering or years he had little to no suffering at all. PHOTO: Baby Jeydon just a few months old. Little did any of us know, he probably had cancer growing in his little body. Jeydon has been on and off vomiting all day long and refuses any medications for it if they can't be administered intravenously, and since we don't want to have too many IV's going at once, (we already have his port accessed for less trauma each time he needs a dose of pain killers and the IV in his hand is for fluids so he won't become dehydrated.) We understand fully that Jeydon doesn't really need fluids anymore but we wouldn't want his body to suffer because of something as simple as dehydration until the end..That just doesn't seem right.This one just cracks me up! Jeydon decided that we needed "Rules" in our room, so he made this when he was about five or six. I love all his little mistakes and precious handwriting.(Enlarge to read.)

We are fully aware that the end is nearing now and that we don't have much time left with our Jeydon.I remember when Jeydon got that newspaper/magazine last year after we came home from a waterpark with our family and grandparents in PA. Jeydon and I both left the pizza parlor early with our grandparents because Jeydon wanted to shower before dinner and I was tired, yes me and not Jeydon, lol. 2008 was a GREAT year for Jeydon. Oh how I wish we could just go back! Many times I have prayed to God and said "just at least take me back!!" so we could all enjoy that great year with a great kid.

Jeydon made my grandma purchase two copies of the magazine so he could take some clippings out of one and hang it on his wall, and use the other just to read and have. Well we arrived home at the end of the summer that year and Jeydon had no time to hang up photos as he was preparing for what would be his last year of school, we just didn't know that. And they still sit atop his bookshelf in the corner of our room, collecting dust. And to think he will never get to even hang them up now, damn!

Please continue the prayers, we need them and we feel them.
-Kyler

Please Say A Prayer

It has been one year since this beautiful little angel quietly slipped into God's arms. Marissa Monroe touched my heart and inspired Jeydon and myself. I am deeply saddened that she is now an angel, but I am sure she is rejoicing in Heaven where she can run, sing, dance, and play without any pain ever again. Fly High Marissa Jean, your family loves and misses you. I made this video in memory of sweet Marissa, please visit her site and send her family some words of encouragement or just say a prayer. www.caringbridge.org/visit/marissamonroe


Jeydon is doing just fine right now, still sleeping but nonetheless-fine. The hospice care-takters say that he will decline rapidly, quickly and soon so we are on pins and needles waiting. Sorry for the absence of photos, Jeydon hates that he is bald and I'd hate to embarrass him right now, so I won't take pictures of him. As I scan in old ones, (which I need to do :)) I will post those, but for now it'll just be this. A few of his friends were over yesterday and he was able to go out onto the porch and talk for longer than assumed. He was out there laughing and chatting for well over an hour but then wanted to come in. He realizes that he is dying and he hasn't said anything at all about it, good nor bad. But he did mention yesterday when I got home from school that he was downright PISSED about missing the last day and that he will "miss it." So that was a bit heartbreaking. He has always loved school, well not the learning but the social part anyhow, haha.

It seems so unfair, thinking about him missing the last day of classes, how in short time he would miss out on everything... That hurts the most, that he won't be able to get married or go to prom, graduate, get a job, even see the next month, or go on a simple trip to the grocery store. Ahhhhh, well i'm going to go before I start venting here!

Please continute the prayers, for us and mostly the sweet Monroe family.
-Kyler

Transitioning.

Jeydon is still here and still fighting just as hard, if not harder. He's laying on the couch he declared to be "his" when we were about five since he just layed around on it so much and he just liked it. And he wouldn't let me lay on it. Ever. Everything feels like its going in slow motion at this point and one day just fades into the next. It actually feels like one big, long night that is seemingly never-ending. When he goes, morning will come once again and his nightmare will end, ours however will just begin. I know he'll be better off and that it was supposed to be this way, for reasons I don't think I will ever know. And its much easier to say that right now obviously because he is still here.

I have tried to prepare myself for his depature that we are all so very much dreading. Jeydon and I have shared a room since we were born and that is because we chose to, not because we had to. We liked it. We still do. I sleep alone now though, since he sleeps on the couch mostly. And its loney, and really quiet without his rough breathing across the room that was so loud not so long ago.

Don't worry, I will still keep everyone updated since I know people are reading this and you all deserve to hear what is going on. Please continute the prayers, they are so very much needed and appreciated. Sorry to make this so short, but its late and I am very tired.

I will update tomorrow.
-Kyler

It's Official...

After about nine years of battling an inhumane disease that knows no boundries, it's official. This cancer doesn't want to respond, nor does it want to leave or even rest for a while. Instead it will slowly take over my brother's life until there is no more life left in Jeydon to take. This cancer is going to eventually kill him.

After waiting for about 90 minutes we recieved the CT and MIBG scan results, and Jeydon was sleeping. The cancer has spread to his skull, brain, liver, lumbar spine, cervical spine, lungs, and invaded every area touchable in his bone marrow. His original tumor (on the adrenal glad) is still present, but not large in size and there is a brand new f****** tumor in his brain. It's official. "We don't suggest treatments at this point because it will only hurt Jeydon, not help him anymore."

I'm sorry I have nothing better to write.
I'm sorry you wanted so badly to just live, Jeydon...

We will take him home tomorrow after we set-up hospice arrangements.
-Kyler

Head first into the pit.

Well, if the picture doesn't say enough, Jeydon was admitted today at around 11AM. He made it to the full day of classes yesterday and was pretty glad, but today went a little differently. My mom had a harder time waking him up this morning and she said he was allowed to stay home if he'd rather, but he declined, saying he could do it. He went into classes from 7:30 until 11, but then felt sleepy and decided he'd rather be at home so off he went via my mom. My mom texted me saying to let myself in today because she'd be bringing Jeydon to the hospital and she was pretty sure that with a 102.1 fever that he'd get admitted.

I am now sitting in his hospital room and he's fast asleep like he's been since about 2, a good four hours or so. They started him on fluids, and tylenol for the fever and they also took cultures so they're going to test for a bunch of infections is my understanding. If he's in the clear he'll get the green light to get started on his chemo tomorrow and if not, then we'll see and just play it by year. Like we always do :)

-Kyler
p.s. sorry that the photo is horribly blurry, its my mom's camera phone, that explains enough, lol.

No fever, yet.

You can see I made some adjustments to Jeydon's blog, which took a little while since finiding a picture that he approved of was like as hard as finidng a hair on his head right now lol! He won't let me share ANY pictures of him right now since he is bald and he loved his hair. :( But he said its OK to share any old pictures of him, just as he has some hair, which I can fully understand. First Picture, Jeydon in the middle:Kindergarten Fieldtrip, months after being diagnosed. Jeydon is doing OK today, becides some bouts of stomach pain which comes and goes every few minutes to hours. He is currently on Amoxicillin for a his ear infection still, and the on-call doctor said his stomach issues could be very much related to that, so we're going to go with that for now and continue him on antacids to see if that suppresses any pain he has. Wednesday we go in for a week (5 days) of inpatient chemo which is a big let down for Jeydon since he wanted to be able to attend his last day of classes on Friday, but my mom had to explain to him it just can't happen, he was OK for a while with it, but quiet. His girlfriend is over right now and they're sitting in the living room watching a movie since Jeydon didn't want to go out anywhere today. Have I mentioned what a saint his girlfriend is?! :) They had planned to go out to the movies today but Jeydon had a change of mind and she greatly agreed to just chill here for a while. More down time for him is good while he rests in prep for his harsh week of chemo up ahead.

He's eating just like a pro which is awesome since he won't be able to eat much next week or the week following after. Today he ate a bagel and an apple for breakfast, then he got starbucks with his friend and is now eating chips and cookies since he couldn't decide, but whatever he feels like is what we'll get for him. My mom is cooking food for dinner and he is continuously asking when it will be ready, lol but that is just awesome!

Jeydon is planning on going to school on Monday and Tuesday for yes you heard it, FULL days. I'm his twin so we have a few classes together, or the same period but just different teachers. I know he is so excited to see all of his friends and they have been asking when he's coming back from school, (he hasn't been there since last Monday since he got an ear infection and then the stomach pain got him down, but it certainly did NOT get the BEST of him!).

Me, Kyler, in Kindergarten. I had no school picture to post of Jeydon for Kindergarten because he was getting chemo during the time they took them.
Please continue the prayers, they really do help and you can just feel when people are praying for him.

-Kyler

FIrst Post, New Webpage.

So, it seems this will be the first post, on this webpage of course, considering we've had another previous one. I am Jeydon's older sister and I will be doing his updates reguarding his treatments and health, but mostly how he's beating cancer every single day. I am horrible at explaining things, so I'm thinking of just doing a copy and paste since i'm also lazy as hell, haha.

Jeydon was doing okay this weekend so far, but he felt a little crappy as the day winded down with a few bouts of pain. He crashed at like 10 which is adnormal for him, he's always been the only one in our family to stay up for hours on end. If he doesn't spike a fever, he'll be back in the hospital on Wednesday next week for inpatient chemo :( which of course like everyone else does, he hates it but he knows he has to do it and so he does. He's pretty damn strong, and i'm proud of him because I know as an individual I wouldn't be able to do this for even a moment!

Please pray, specifically for:

1. No fever

2. A good day tomorrow

3. Little to no pain.

Updates tomorrow and i'll give more of a bg story then, :)