I can't believe that a new year has begun without Jeydon here. I think I've said that before for numerous different things but I guess now you "get" the idea of still not believing that Jeydon is really gone. I can't imagine that in just five months time, it will be one year. Didn't I just tell you he was gone for five months? Days? Minutes?
While it doesn't snow too often here (England) there is a small blanket of snow embracing the frozen ground. Staring outside for far too long allows thoughts to collect in my mind, such as if Jeydon is cold underground? He only has a t-shirt on, and has a bald head. Doesn't that still matter? I can't imagine why it doesn't... I'm not sure as of how many people have thought the same, but I'm sure someone has. I know his body isn't "him" anymore, but I can't push passed the fact of thinking that he might be cold. That my brother is burried in the ground because he died...
At the end of this month our Nana will be coming for a visit and soon enough she will venture out here forever to move nearby us (probably by the summer). The mere thought of that makes my heart sing!
It's hard not to think about angelversaries, but they always pool inside my mind. Next month my eldest brother's friend will be in Heaven one year..on Valentines Day to be precise. His name was "Gavin" please say a prayer in his memory on the 14th, of Feb. Also, one very special angel will be in glorious Heaven three years on Feb. the 5th. Her name is "Ava" and she's from Australia (oh you know how I dearly LOVE AU!) She was three when she was tragically taken from this world. Please visit this darling angel here. Gosh, three years. Trying to imagine that is gut-wrenching, I don't know how her amazing mum, Sheye, does it.
K xxxxx
